For weeks before a vacation, my mind slowly begins checking out. The countdown starts, and every day seems to stretch on forever. Work isn’t necessarily harder, but it’s harder to focus because part of me is already picturing ocean views, new cities, long dinners, and mornings without an alarm. The anticipation makes time crawl.
Then, almost without warning, it’s over.
One day you’re standing on the balcony watching the sunrise over the water, promising yourself you’ll remember exactly how peaceful you feel. The next, you’re standing in your kitchen surrounded by suitcases, trying to remember if you have anything clean to wear to work while your phone buzzes with emails that somehow multiplied while you were gone.
I’ve always thought the return home is harder than we admit. We spend so much time talking about planning the trip and soaking up every minute while we’re away that we rarely acknowledge what it feels like to step back into normal life. There’s an expectation that we should simply unpack, get a good night’s sleep, and be ready to jump right back into our routines. As if our minds can flip the same switch our luggage wheels do when they roll back into the closet.
For me, it never works that way.
Vacation reminds me of a slower version of myself. I notice things again. I linger over meals instead of rushing through them. I spend time on myself whether that’s remembering to wash my face or wearing makeup. I stop looking at the clock every thirty minutes – heck I lose track of what day it is. I find myself paying attention to conversations, sunsets, architecture, gardens, and the little moments that somehow get crowded out by everyday life. It isn’t that responsibilities disappear; it’s that they stop being the only thing occupying space in my mind.
Coming home means trading that version of myself for the one who measures her day in meetings, deadlines, laundry, grocery lists, and overflowing inboxes. Even if I enjoy my life, the transition feels abrupt. It’s almost like emotional jet lag. My body may be back home, but part of my mind is still wandering the beaches or listening to waves against the side of a ship.
I’ve started to wonder if that’s why the first few days back at work feel so exhausting. Maybe it isn’t because the workload is overwhelming. Maybe it’s because we’re asking ourselves to shift gears too quickly. We expect our minds to go from complete freedom to complete productivity overnight, and that’s asking more of ourselves than we would in almost any other situation.
When we cross time zones, we accept that we’ll need a few days to adjust. We don’t criticize ourselves for waking up at odd hours or feeling tired in the middle of the afternoon. We understand that our bodies need time to catch up. Yet when it comes to returning from vacation, we expect our minds to make that adjustment instantly.
Maybe they need time, too.
I’ve learned not to rush myself on this process. Cause if I do I get hella angry at having to work for a living lol. I like looking through the photos while the memories are still fresh instead of letting them sit on my phone for months. I’ll make one of the recipes we discovered while traveling or listen to music that reminds me of where we were. It’s my way of allowing the trip to come home with me instead of pretending it ended the moment the plane landed.
The older I get, the more I realize that the purpose of vacation isn’t simply to escape work. It’s to remember who I am when work isn’t occupying every corner of my thoughts. That version of me—the one who slows down enough to notice beauty, laugh a little more, and breathe a little deeper—isn’t someone I want to leave behind every time I unpack my suitcase.
Maybe that’s why re-entry feels so difficult. We’re not just returning to work. We’re trying to hold onto a version of ourselves that we rediscovered while we were away. And perhaps the real challenge isn’t getting back into the routine. It’s figuring out how to bring a little bit of vacation thinking into ordinary Tuesday afternoons, long after the suitcase has been put away.
Blessings y’all – Amy
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