Tag: thankful

Somewhere Between Europe and Real Life

A month ago, Tim and I were wandering through Europe without a care in the world. We were waking up in new places, deciding what we wanted to see that day, eating incredible food, exploring places we had dreamed about visiting, and living in that strange little travel bubble where the rest of life feels very far away. Work still existed somewhere across an ocean, responsibilities were waiting for us at home, and real life certainly hadn’t disappeared, but for a couple of weeks we had the luxury of being removed from most of it. We were together almost constantly, our biggest decisions involved where we wanted to go next or what sounded good for dinner, and there was something wonderfully simple about our days.

It is honestly hard to wrap my brain around the fact that was only a month ago, because life since we came home has felt completely different. Almost immediately I got sick, which meant I never really had that gradual transition back into normal life that you hope for after a big trip. Instead, it felt like we landed, unpacked our suitcases, and walked straight into a season of change. Both of our jobs have shifted dramatically in a very short amount of time, and we have both been trying to adjust to new expectations, new responsibilities, and workplaces that seem to be changing faster than either of us can fully process. There has been a lot of uncertainty, a lot of mental noise, and more than a few days when both of us have gotten home already depleted before the evening even started.

One of the biggest adjustments for me has been Tim going back into an office. The entire time we have been together, he has worked from home, so without me ever really thinking about it, his being there became part of the rhythm of my life. I was the one who left in the morning, and he was the one who was home when I came back. No matter what kind of day I had, I knew that when I pulled into the driveway, he would be inside. There was comfort in that predictability that I never fully appreciated until it changed, and I have discovered that I really, really hate coming home to an empty house.

It isn’t that I can’t be alone or that I need someone there every second of the day. It is simply that after years of one routine, the absence of it feels bigger than I expected. I will walk into the house and immediately notice the quiet. There is no one to tell the ridiculous story from my day to while I am putting my things down, no familiar presence in the next room, and no little transition point between work and home that I had apparently come to rely on far more than I realized. On the days when Tim is dealing with his own work drama and gets home later than usual, that empty stretch of evening feels even longer. I miss him in a way that almost feels silly because he is just at work, but I think what I really miss is the rhythm we had before all of this changed.

At the same time, another part of our everyday life has shifted with my mother-in-law and her twin sister moving closer to us while we were in Europe. We are genuinely glad to have them nearby, but it has still been an adjustment simply because they are now part of the geography of our daily lives in a way they weren’t before. They are settling into new homes, learning a new community, navigating all the little things that come with a move, and we are naturally more involved now because we are close enough to be. There isn’t anything negative about that, but like every other change happening at the moment, it has altered the shape of our routines and added another new layer to a life that already feels like it is being rewritten in real time.

None of these things, taken individually, are necessarily bad. Tim’s job changes come with opportunity. Having family closer is something we wanted. Coming home from an incredible trip is hardly a hardship. Even changes at work are simply part of life sometimes. The problem is that life rarely hands you change one neat piece at a time. It stacks everything together. Add getting sick as soon as we got home, high levels of anxiety, too little sleep, shifting work responsibilities, new routines, and the general whiplash of returning from a long trip, and suddenly even perfectly normal changes can start to feel enormous.

I have felt more anxious than usual lately, and sleep has not been helping. There have been too many mornings when I wake up already tired and too many evenings when I feel like my nervous system has had enough before the day is actually over. There are nights when Tim and I are finally sitting in the same room together and I still feel like I miss him, which sounds ridiculous until I realize I am not necessarily missing the person sitting beside me. I am missing the ease we had before everything got so loud. I am missing the version of our life where I knew exactly what our days looked like, where I knew he would be home when I got there, and where we had enough energy left at the end of the day to actually enjoy each other instead of simply recovering beside each other.

That is probably the strangest part of all of this. Nothing catastrophic happened. There was no single moment when life blew apart. It was more like a hundred small things changed at once, and eventually I looked around and realized that the familiar rhythm we had before Europe was gone. Meanwhile, the pictures on my phone are still full of Rome and Santorini and Barcelona, of the two of us laughing and wandering around beautiful places without thinking much beyond whatever we were doing that day. It feels almost impossible that those photos are only weeks old when the life we came home to feels so far removed from the people in them.

Maybe that is why this season has felt so disorienting. Travel gives you this temporary pause button where you step outside your normal life, and for a little while you get to exist without quite so many of the things that usually pull at you. Then you come home expecting to slide back into the life you left, only to discover that life kept moving while you were gone. Jobs changed. Routines changed. Family dynamics shifted. Your body got tired. Your brain got overwhelmed. Suddenly you are standing in your own kitchen wondering how a month ago you were in another country without a care in the world and now you cannot seem to figure out what day it is or why you are so exhausted.

I think what I am learning is that there may not be an old normal waiting for us to return to. We may simply be in the process of building a new one. Tim and I are figuring out what his new work schedule looks like for us, how my own work changes fit into our lives, what it means to have family closer, and how to protect some sense of peace when both of us are being pulled in multiple directions. We are learning new rhythms whether we wanted to or not, and I am trying to give myself a little more grace about the fact that I haven’t adjusted to all of it as quickly as I thought I should.

A month ago, our days were filled with new countries, beautiful views, long meals, and the freedom to wander. Today, our lives look a lot more like alarm clocks, work stress, errands, family, responsibilities, and two tired people trying to reconnect at the end of the day. As different as those two versions of our life seem, they are both part of the same story. One is the adventure we dreamed about, and the other is the life we are building together.

I think for now, that is enough. I do not need to force everything to feel settled immediately or pretend that I am handling every change gracefully. I can admit that I miss the way things were, miss the version of us that had nowhere to be except wherever we wanted to wander next, and still trust that eventually this new season will stop feeling quite so unfamiliar. Tim and I have found our rhythm before, through much harder things than this, and I know we will find it again. We are just somewhere in the messy middle right now, trying to remember that not every season is meant to feel comfortable while you are living through it.

Blessings Y’all – Amy

Clapping for Myself

For years I’ve been the person who circles birthdays and work anniversaries or sets email reminders for the bosses. I make sure the cards get passed around, that everyone has a chance to sign them, that no one is accidentally overlooked. It’s one of those small, invisible things that helps people feel seen and important to us. Ironically, this past Saturday marked my own fifteen-year anniversary with the company, and while there was a card because that’s what we do, no one actually remembered that it was fifteen years.

I’ll admit, it hurt more than I expected.

Not because I wanted a party or a speech or some grand display of appreciation. Fifteen years just feels significant. It’s not one project or one busy season or one good year. It’s fifteen years of showing up. Fifteen years of solving problems, learning new systems, adapting to new leadership, celebrating victories, surviving disappointments, and quietly carrying responsibilities that rarely fit neatly into a job description. When I stop to think about everything the last fifteen years has held for me it makes me want to weep.

For most of the weekend, I found myself waiting for someone to notice. Someone to say, “Fifteen years…that’s a long time. Congratulations.” When that moment didn’t come until I reminded someone this morning, I realized how easy it is to let other people become the keepers of our accomplishments. We wait for someone else to decide whether what we’ve done was meaningful enough to acknowledge.

But maybe that’s asking other people to do a job that belongs to us.

No one else has lived my fifteen years. No one else knows the mornings I walked into the office carrying burdens no one could see. No one else remembers every challenge, every deadline, every difficult conversation, every time I stayed because leaving wasn’t an option. No one else saw the tears shed in the car on the way home or behind a closed door. I know what those years cost me. I also know what they taught me. If anyone is qualified to decide whether they were worth celebrating, it’s me.

I’ve spent much of my life believing that recognition had to come from somewhere outside myself. A promotion. A compliment. A thank-you. A remembered anniversary. Those things are wonderful when they happen, but they’re unreliable places to build your sense of worth. People get busy. Calendars get full. Good intentions get lost. If I leave my value in someone else’s hands, I’ll spend far too much of my life waiting. I already have spent too much of my life waiting.

So this year I’m choosing something different. I’m choosing to tell myself congratulations. I’m choosing to recognize the woman who kept showing up, even when it was the hardest thing to do. I’m choosing to honor the years of faithfulness, resilience, and perseverance that no one else fully witnessed because I was the one living them. There is something surprisingly freeing about realizing that I don’t need permission to be proud of myself.

Maybe that’s one of the gifts that comes with experience. We eventually learn that while it’s wonderful to be celebrated by others, it’s just as important to become someone who can celebrate herself.

So here’s to fifteen years in one place – through storms and life’s ugly curveballs. Good job!! You built a career one ordinary day at a time. You weathered seasons that would have made other people quit. You kept going when it would have been easier not to. Whether anyone else remembered the milestone or not, it was real.

And that’s worth celebrating.

Blessings y’all – Amy

The Songs That Hit Deep

A few weekends ago, I was on a girls’ trip in the Texas Hill Country. We were driving down a two-lane highway, the kind that stretches out in front of you with no particular urgency, and Cody Johnson was blasting through the speakers. My best friend and I were singing at the top of our lungs, laughing, missing half the words, and completely unconcerned with how ridiculous we sounded. It was one of those simple moments that doesn’t feel significant at the time, yet somehow you know you’ll remember it forever.

As the miles rolled by, I found myself paying attention to two songs in particular: ‘Til You Can’t and The Fall. Not because they were new to me, but because certain songs seem to evolve as we do. They mean one thing when we’re young and convinced we have all the time in the world, and something entirely different after life has taught us otherwise.

If you got a chance, take it, take it while you got a chance
If you got a dream, chase it, ’cause a dream won’t chase you back
If you’re gonna love somebody
Hold ’em as long and as strong and as close as you can
‘Til you can’t

Loss has a way of changing the lens through which you see everything. Before grief, songs about taking chances, loving deeply, and embracing life can feel inspiring. After grief, they feel urgent. They become reminders that none of us know how much time we have with the people we love or how quickly the life we know can change. For those of us who have buried someone we never wanted to lose, those messages aren’t theoretical. They’re lived experience.

There was a time in my life when I would have given almost anything to avoid the storm that was coming. If someone had offered me a glimpse into the future and shown me the heartbreak, the fear, the sleepless nights, and the years of learning how to carry grief, I would have begged for a different path. I would have chosen certainty over pain every single time.

But somewhere between then and now, something shifted.

Sitting in that truck, singing those songs with the windows down, I realized that knowing everything I know today, I would still do it all again.

The ride was worth the fall
The fall was worth the smiles
The smiles were worth the tears
Tears were worth the miles
Miles were worth the pain
Pain was worth it all
It’s all worth this life
Life is worth the ride
The ride is worth the fall

That may sound strange to anyone who hasn’t experienced profound loss, but I suspect those who have will understand immediately. I wouldn’t choose the pain because the pain itself has value. I would choose it because the love was worth it. I would choose it because every beautiful thing that came before the loss mattered. And I would choose it because surviving that storm shaped the person I became afterward.

If I hadn’t lived through those years, I wouldn’t have the life I have today. I wouldn’t be Tim’s wife. I wouldn’t be the mother I am. I wouldn’t be a Mimi, experiencing a kind of joy that my younger self couldn’t even imagine. I wouldn’t have learned that people can break into a thousand pieces and somehow still find a way to rebuild. I wouldn’t understand how grief and gratitude can occupy the same space, each making the other more visible.

The truth is that so much of who I am today was forged in circumstances I never would have chosen. That’s one of life’s great paradoxes. We spend so much time wishing away the hard chapters, only to discover later that they became part of the foundation for some of the most meaningful things in our lives.

Maybe that’s why those songs lingered with me long after the trip ended. They aren’t really about loss. They’re about life. They’re about recognizing that every day is an opportunity to show up fully, to love people well, to take the trip, make the call, say the words, and stop assuming there will always be another chance. They remind me that while none of us can avoid the falls, we can decide what we do with them.

As we continued down that highway, in the pouring rain, friendship, and music, I felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Not gratitude for the storms themselves, but gratitude for what waited on the other side of them. Because while I would never wish those experiences on anyone, I can honestly say that the life I have today—the people I love, the perspective I’ve gained, and the joy I now recognize in ordinary moments—exists because I survived them.

Sometimes a song is just a song. And sometimes it’s a reminder that the hardest chapters of our lives don’t get the final word. Sometimes it’s a reminder that while we may not get to choose every storm, we do get to choose what we do with the life that’s waiting for us after the clouds finally clear.

Blessings Y’all – Amy

Twenty-Six Years??

Twenty-six years ago today, I started the first of only three jobs I’ve had in the last twenty-six years.

I arrived in Dallas young, hopeful, and carrying a lot of expectations. I was convinced that moving here might help repair my relationship with my mom. Like so many things in life, that story didn’t unfold the way I imagined it would. We never found the relationship I was hoping for. For a long time, I viewed that as a disappointment. Now, with the perspective that only time can bring, I see that life was busy giving me something else and I’m very much at peace with letting that relationship go.

What Dallas gave me was time with my grandparents.

Not the dramatic, movie-worthy moments. The ordinary ones. Family dinners. Holidays. Conversations I don’t fully remember but would give anything to hear again. Time around the dominos table. I got years with them before they left this earth, years I might not have had if life had taken me somewhere else. Looking back, that gift was bigger than the one I thought I was moving here to receive.

The last twenty-six years have been packed with more life than I could have imagined when I unpacked those first boxes. They gave me my children, who somehow transformed from little kids needing rides and reminders into adults building lives of their own. A precious grandchild I never expected to get to watch grow. They gave me a marriage with Fred that shaped me in ways I still recognize today. That chapter brought love, growth, laughter, challenges, and eventually grief. The kind of grief that settles into the corners of your life and quietly changes the person you become.

And then, when I least expected it, life gave me Tim.

Sometimes I think about how strange it is that some of the best things in our lives arrive after we’ve already decided we know how the story is supposed to go. Tim is my safe place, my biggest supporter, and my favorite person to come home to. He watches over me, takes care of me when I need it, celebrates my victories, and somehow still manages to make me laugh when I’m taking life too seriously. After everything we’ve both walked through to get here, I don’t take a single day of it for granted.

Professionally, these years have been just as significant. I’m approaching fifteen years with TLC, which feels impossible to write. Fifteen years. There are memories tucked into those years everywhere I look. People who taught me things, challenged me, frustrated me, encouraged me, and became part of my story. Some have long since moved on. Others are still part of my day-to-day life. Together we’ve navigated growth, change, success, uncertainty, and enough stories that I could probably fill a book.

Lately, though, I’ve become more aware of time. Maybe that’s one of the unexpected parts of getting older. Not because I feel old—I absolutely do not feel old enough to have spent twenty-six years in this industry—but because I can suddenly see the years stacked behind me. Twenty-six years ago doesn’t feel like a lifetime ago. It feels like a few chapters ago. Yet somehow, in that time, I’ve watched grandparents leave this world, children become adults, coworkers come and go, and entire seasons of life pass by before I realized they were ending.

There are days when that realization feels a little heavy. Time moves faster now than it used to. The calendar pages flip quicker. The milestones arrive sooner. The people we love get older. We get older.

But when I look back over these twenty-six years, the feeling that rises above all the others isn’t sadness. It’s gratitude.

Gratitude for the relationship that never became what I hoped, because it led me to relationships that became more than I could have imagined. Gratitude for the grandparents who loved me so well. Gratitude for the children who made me a mother. Gratitude for the years with Fred and the lessons that came from loving and losing. Gratitude for Tim and the joy of discovering that life can still surprise you.

Twenty-six years ago, I arrived in Dallas hoping for one thing.

Instead, I got a life. And while it hasn’t always been easy, I wouldn’t trade a single chapter.

Blessings Y’all – Amy

The Joy of Being a Certain Age….

There’s a quiet, unspoken club you join at a certain age. No one sends you an invitation. There’s no welcome packet. Just one day you wake up and realize…oh. This is happening.

And suddenly, your body has opinions. Strong ones.

The joy of being “a certain age” is that you finally know yourself—what you like, what you don’t, what you’re willing to tolerate, and what you absolutely are not. The irony, of course, is that just as your confidence settles in, your internal thermostat packs up and leaves town without notice.

One minute you’re perfectly fine. The next, you’re peeling off layers like you’re in the middle of a Texas heatwave…in February. Then five minutes later, you’re reaching for a blanket like you’ve been dropped into a walk-in freezer. There is no rhyme or reason. You are both the sun and the Arctic, sometimes within the same hour.

Sleep? That used to be something you did without thinking. Now it’s a strategic event. You go to bed tired, maybe even exhausted, and still find yourself staring at the ceiling at 2:17 a.m., mentally reorganizing your pantry, replaying conversations from 2004, and wondering if you should repaint the living room. When sleep finally comes, it’s light, unpredictable, and often interrupted by—what else—a sudden need to throw off the covers because your body has decided it’s time for another internal bonfire.

And then there’s the irritability.

It sneaks in quietly at first. Little things. Harmless things. Someone chewing too loudly. A cabinet left open. A text message that simply says “k.” You find yourself thinking, is it me…or is everyone just a little extra lately? The answer, of course, is complicated. You’re not wrong—but you’re also not entirely right. Your tolerance has shifted, your patience has thinned, and your filter? It’s been significantly edited.

But here’s the part no one talks about enough: underneath all of this, there is a strange, steady kind of joy.

Because with the temperature swings and the sleepless nights comes a clarity that wasn’t always there before. You stop pretending. You stop over-explaining. You stop bending yourself into shapes that don’t fit just to keep the peace. You start choosing comfort over expectation, honesty over politeness, and rest over proving something.

You learn to laugh at the absurdity of it all—standing in front of an open freezer at midnight just to cool down, kicking off blankets and then pulling them right back up, apologizing (sometimes) after snapping over something small. You recognize that your body is changing, yes—but so is your perspective.

You become more protective of your time, your energy, your peace. You learn to appreciate your grandbaby’s giggle as the purest sweetest sound on earth.

And maybe that’s the real joy of being a certain age.

It’s not that everything feels easy—because it doesn’t. It’s that you finally understand what matters enough to keep, and what you’re allowed to let go. What you will and won’t tolerate from the youth around you. Even if you’re doing it while fanning yourself with the nearest magazine and wondering if you’ll ever sleep through the night again.

Blessings y’all – Amy

Perfectly Imperfect: What Quilts Teach Us About Life

There’s something humbling about finishing a quilt and immediately spotting the one corner that didn’t quite match. No matter how much time and care you put into it, your eye goes straight to the imperfection—the seam that’s just a little off, the point that didn’t land quite right. For a long time, I thought that meant I had missed the mark. That perfection was the goal, and anything less was a flaw. But the more quilts I make—and the more life I live—the more I realize those slightly imperfect corners are the point.

Quilts, much like life, aren’t meant to line up perfectly. We start both with careful plans, good intentions, and a vision of how everything should come together. We measure, we align, we try to keep everything straight. And then something shifts. Fabric stretches, seams don’t cooperate, and suddenly things don’t quite match the way we imagined. Life does the same thing. Plans change, timing gets off, and we find ourselves adjusting as we go. In both cases, we’re left with a choice: tear it all apart in pursuit of perfection, or keep moving forward and trust that it will still come together into something meaningful.

What I’ve come to understand is that “good enough” isn’t settling—it’s living. Quilters often say “finished is better than perfect,” and that truth reaches far beyond the sewing room. Chasing perfection can keep us stuck, constantly reworking, rethinking, and never quite allowing ourselves to be done. But when we embrace the beauty of something finished—even with its flaws—we create space for joy, progress, and purpose. A quilt doesn’t have to be perfect to be warm, comforting, and loved. And we don’t have to be perfect to live a full and meaningful life.

Years from now, no one will pick up one of my quilts and point out the seams that didn’t match. They’ll remember who made it, why it was made, and how it felt to be wrapped up in it. The same is true for us. People won’t remember whether we had everything perfectly aligned; they’ll remember how we showed up, how we loved, and how we kept going even when things didn’t come together exactly as planned. The imperfections become part of the story, not something to hide, but something that proves we were there, creating and living in the middle of it all.

So now, when I notice a corner that’s a little off, I let it be. I see it as a reminder that perfection was never the goal—presence was. That quilt, with all its uneven edges and slightly mismatched seams, is still beautiful. It’s still whole. And in many ways, it’s more meaningful because of those imperfections. Because in quilting, and in life, it’s not about getting every point to match—it’s about stitching something together that matters.

Blessings y’all – Amy

Sewing My Way to Sanity

Quilting started as a hobby. It has since evolved into emotional regulation… and an entirely unhinged fabric acquisition strategy.

When my brain feels loud and life feels like it’s happening all at once, quilting is the one thing that reliably quiets everything down. Measuring, cutting, piecing, pressing—my thoughts don’t stand a chance against a quarter-inch seam allowance.

Quilting demands just enough focus to keep me out of my own head.

You can’t spiral while trying to line up points. You can’t overthink when the fabric is actively trying to slide away from you. Quilting insists on presence, whether you’re ready for it or not.

And it’s physical in the best way.

The weight of folded fabric. The snick of the rotary cutter. The iron hissing like it’s judging you. The steady hum of the machine. It’s impossible to doom-scroll while quilting—which is unfortunate for my phone, but excellent for my nervous system.

Quilting is different than other crafts.

This isn’t instant gratification. Quilts take time. Weeks. Months. Sometimes years. Quilting teaches patience through mild frustration and repeated seam ripping. It also teaches acceptance—because at some point you decide that seam is close enough and move on with your life.

Other crafts chase perfection. Quilting gently whispers, “No one will see that once it’s quilted.”

And then there’s the fabric.

I do not have a fabric stash. I have a fabric collection. A carefully curated, emotionally significant archive of potential futures. Each piece has a purpose. Not a plan—a purpose. There is a difference.

Fabric hoarding is not about excess. It’s about preparedness.

What if I need it for this quilt? What if I never find it again? What if I don’t use it for five years but then suddenly it’s PERFECT? These are valid concerns and I will not be taking questions at this time.

Quilting humbles you regularly.

You sew something wrong. You seam rip it. You sew it wrong again. You question all your life choices. Then somehow, miraculously, it comes together. Quilting is basically resilience training with cotton.

But here’s the thing—it works.

Some days I quilt for joy.

Some days I quilt because my emotions are doing parkour.

Some days I quilt because keeping a pile of fabric organized feels easier than organizing my thoughts.

Quilting doesn’t fix everything.

But it gives my hands something steady to do while my brain sorts itself out. It reminds me that progress can be slow and still be progress. That messy pieces can become something beautiful. That it’s okay to pause, adjust, and keep going.

I didn’t mean to sew my way to sanity.

But here I am—surrounded by fabric, half-finished quilts, and the quiet comfort of knowing that if nothing else makes sense today, I can always line up another seam.

And honestly?

That—and maybe just one more yard of fabric—is enough.

Blessings y’all – Amy

Confessions of a Spoiled Wife

I’ve hesitated to write this because “spoiled” is such a loaded word. It conjures images of entitlement, diamonds tossed aside, and someone complaining because their coffee wasn’t hot enough the third time. That’s not me.

But if we’re being honest—and this is a confessions post—I am spoiled.

Not in the flashy, reality-TV sense. I don’t live a life of excess or luxury for the sake of it. I’m spoiled in the quiet, everyday ways that don’t make for Instagram reels but absolutely shape how safe, supported, and loved I feel.

I’m spoiled because my husband notices things.

He notices when I’m overwhelmed before I say it out loud. He notices when my patience is thin, when my shoulders are tense, when I’m carrying more than I should. And instead of telling me to “relax,” he steps in. Sometimes that looks like attacking the never ending to do list we share between us. Sometimes it’s ordering dinner. Sometimes it’s just letting me be cranky without fixing me.

I’m spoiled because he encourages me to rest—even when I’m not very good at it.

I’m wired to keep going, to push through, to feel like there’s always one more thing that needs to be done. Rest doesn’t come naturally to me, and slowing down often feels uncomfortable. He sees that. And instead of rushing me or getting frustrated, he gently nudges me toward pause.

Sometimes that looks like reminding me it’s okay to sit down. Sometimes it’s handling things so I don’t feel the pressure to keep moving. And sometimes it’s just being patient while I learn how to stop without feeling guilty.

That kind of steady encouragement—the kind that doesn’t demand or expect anything in return—is its own kind of care.

I’m spoiled because my opinions matter.

I’ve always prided myself on being independent. I didn’t need help. I didn’t rely on anyone. I handled things myself, carried my own weight, and wore self-sufficiency like a badge of honor. Depending on someone felt risky—like giving up control.

And then there’s my husband.

He never asked me to be smaller or less capable. He just made it safe to lean. Little by little, he made dependence feel less like weakness and more like trust. Being able to say “I’ve got this” and “I need you” without shame has been unexpectedly freeing. He makes room for both versions of me—the strong one and the tired one—and somehow makes both feel equally valued.

Not just on the big stuff, but on the boring, everyday decisions. The tone of our life together isn’t dictated—it’s a compromise we work on all the time. I’m heard. I’m considered. I’m respected even when we disagree. Especially then.

And yes, sometimes I’m spoiled in the more obvious ways too.

Thoughtful surprises that say, I was thinking about you when you weren’t in the room. Surprise Stanleys (when we all know I don’t need any more). Over the top thoughtful gifts on the gifting occasions. Not only putting up with but encouraging my hobbies. Those things add up. They soften the edges of hard days.

But here’s the part that matters most: being spoiled doesn’t mean I don’t give back.

This isn’t a one-way street where I take and take and call it love. I show up. I carry weight. I contribute. I fight for us. I love loudly and protect fiercely. Being spoiled isn’t about imbalance—it’s about care being mutual and intentional.

I’m spoiled because my marriage is safe.

Safe to be honest. Safe to be imperfect. Safe to grow and change without fear of being punished for it.

If calling myself a spoiled wife makes someone uncomfortable, I’m okay with that. I didn’t stumble into this life by accident. I chose a partner who treats me well, and I choose him back every day.

So yes – I confess.

I’m spoiled.

And I’m incredibly grateful.

Blessings y’all – Amy

The Joys of Being a Brand-New Mimi

I’ve only been a Mimi for a short time—just four months—but somehow it already feels like a part of me that’s always existed.

Being a brand-new Mimi is a quiet kind of joy. It’s the joy of learning her rhythms, her sounds, the way her face lights up when she recognizes me. It’s lighting up like I won the lottery when a text comes in with a new video or picture. It’s realizing that even at four months old when I visit she knows exactly who I am—and that I am safe, familiar, and love her beyond measure.

There is something incredibly grounding about holding a baby who fits perfectly in the crook of your arm. About rocking her while the world slows down just enough to breathe again. In those moments, nothing else matters—not the noise, not the stress, not the endless mental lists. Just her steady breathing and the way her tiny fingers curl around mine.

At four months, everything is new. Her curiosity is wide open, and I love my front-row seat to the wonder. I get to hear the first belly laughs, the wide-eyed fascination with ordinary things, the serious concentration as she studies the world around her. Being her Mimi means I get to marvel alongside her.

This season comes with a beautiful freedom. I don’t carry the weight of being her parent—but I carry the privilege of loving her deeply. I get to support, to soothe, to show up without pressure. I get to be present in a way that feels both intentional and light. I get to watch my kids thrive as parents and be so proud of how they love and shape this little person.

There is also something unexpectedly healing about this role. Becoming a Mimi has softened parts of me I didn’t realize were still holding tension. It has reminded me that love doesn’t have to be earned or managed—it can simply be given.

I know this stage will pass quickly. Four months will turn into crawling, then walking, then running. But right now, in this small and fleeting season, I’m soaking it in—the weight of her in my arms, the sound of her laugh, the way being her Mimi feels like a gift wrapped in the quiet moments.

Being a brand-new Mimi has already changed me. And I have a feeling this joy is only just beginning. 

Blessing Y’all – Amy

Welcome To The Jungle…The Concrete Jungle That Is!

Coming from Texas, New York City hit me like a wall of sound. At home, the nights are wide open and quiet—just cicadas buzzing in the heat, the hum of a porch fan, maybe the crackle of mesquite wood in the fire pit. Weekends smell like barbecue drifting from the neighbor’s backyard, and the pace of life is as steady as a two-lane road stretching toward the horizon.

In Manhattan, silence doesn’t exist. Horns blare in constant argument, buses hiss as they brake, and the subway rumbles below like a restless beast. Layered over it all are voices—thousands of them—clashing, laughing, bargaining, shouting in languages I couldn’t always place. The city doesn’t hum—it roars. And stepping into it, I felt like I’d been dropped into the middle of a song that never stops playing.

The Smells of the City

Texas air is familiar: mesquite smoke, cut grass, fresh rain on dust, the sweet smell of bluebonnets in spring. New York, though, is a kaleidoscope of scents that change block by block. On one corner, a halal cart fills the air with cumin and sizzling lamb. Walk a little farther, and roasted nuts or a hot pretzel tempt you. Then, just as suddenly, the sharp tang of garbage bags waiting for pickup crashes in. But even that fades the moment a bagel shop door opens, releasing the warmth of toasted sesame and fresh bread. It’s chaotic, sometimes foul, sometimes heavenly, but never dull.

The Rat Race in Motion

In Texas, people wave at strangers on backroads, traffic slows behind tractors, and “running late” usually means you stopped to chat somewhere. New York doesn’t have time for that. The sidewalks churn like a stampede. Before the crosswalk light even changes, crowds surge into the street, weaving between cabs with coffees in hand. At first, I hung back—hesitant, cautious. But soon I matched their stride, dodging traffic like it was second nature. The city pulls you into its rhythm whether you’re ready or not.

Finding My Place in the Chaos

Back home, solitude is easy. Step outside at night and the sky opens, stars scattered wide above dark fields. In New York, solitude is impossible—but community is everywhere. Packed shoulder to shoulder on a subway car, sharing an eye-roll at a train delay, or laughing when a cab screeches too close—it felt raw and unfiltered, but real. In its own way, the city made me feel less alone than an empty Texas backroad ever could.

Why It Stays With Me

New York is relentless. It doesn’t slow down, doesn’t soften its edges, doesn’t stop for anyone to catch their breath. But for a Texan used to space, stillness, and skies that seem to go on forever, the chaos was intoxicating. It rewired my pulse to its own restless beat.

New York doesn’t politely invite you to love it—it dares you. And as much as I’ll always cherish the wide skies, the slow drawl of a summer evening, and the comforting smell of barbecue smoke drifting through the Texas air, I know I’ll take that dare again.